The laparoscopy got postponed. For the second time. It’s now not until the beginning of November, and falls smack in the middle of my cycle, so if this month doesn’t work, we will definitely be out for November. More waiting.
Oh yeah, and our work colleague told us today that she’s pregnant. With her second child. Why does that hurt so much? Not only did she start trying for her first AFTER us, but she had some difficulty falling the first time – it took her 10 months. It’s not like I don’t want her to be pregnant – she’s lovely. And I’m glad she didn’t have to go through months of heartache the second time around. So why do I feel so sad? I guess it just reminds me that I’m not pregnant. Still.
It’s Saturday tomorrow. Who’s betting I get another fucking Saturday surge scenario?
vee
11 responses so far ↓
sarasp // September 28, 2007 at 4:32 pm |
no more lemons!
Sara // September 28, 2007 at 4:49 pm |
Sorry this cycle has started this way. I’m hoping for a timely surge and a successful round so that November isn’t even needed. Take care of each other!
holly // September 28, 2007 at 6:21 pm |
i’m sorry vee. it is so frustrating seeing more people get pregnant. and it’s not like you don’t wish them success, it’s just always a shitty reminder.
i hope you won’t even need to worry about november because you’ll have a bfp before then.
tbean // September 28, 2007 at 6:35 pm |
a friend told me on the phone that she thinks she is pregnant (she’s straight and it was her first try) and it made me want to cry. And I haven’t been at this even a fraction as long as you have. so sorry for the frustration. If I could knock you up I would.
Calliope // September 28, 2007 at 8:59 pm |
that sucks ass! sooooo lame about the rescheduling.
fuck.
so sorry guys.
& the timing of your work friend? shitty. (not that it is her fault)
reproducinggenius // September 28, 2007 at 9:39 pm |
Ick. I’m so sorry about the rescheduling and the friend. It’s soooooo hard to be reminded of how easy it is for some people to get knocked up. Sometimes I wish they’d keep it to themselves.
Sending you lots of good timing vibes for your surge.
owlie // September 28, 2007 at 10:31 pm |
Crap. Here’s hoping there is no saturday surge for you. Maybe we will surge together? Its saturday here and my OPK is neg today!
I’ve lost count of the amount of people who have got pregnant and had babies since we started trying. As much as I am ecstatic for them it makes the end to our journey seem that much further out of reach.
Bree // September 28, 2007 at 11:22 pm |
Been cheering for you for awhile, don’t comment much. I’ve been on the charting/trying/breaking-down/wondering-what-next/still-wanting-kiddos journey since December 2005. It takes a ridiculous toll on your ability to feel and/or feign joy for other peoples’ success, no?
But you still can, when it’s one of ‘us,’ right? And we’ll all be happy for you when it works. And frustrated right along with you when you get rescheduled unjustly!
But hopefully, we’ll be just be plain happy for you… soon.
CD & SP // September 29, 2007 at 12:44 am |
I cried when my cousin told me. Mature, eh?
Co // September 29, 2007 at 1:21 pm |
That sucks about the lap being postponed. Sucks.
I will think “anti-premature-ovulation” thoughts for you.
And, it’s so hard to watch others get pg and still not be there yourselves, especially given all the delays you have had or might have in future that straight couples don’t have to contend with.
Ente // October 1, 2007 at 4:19 pm |
I get more and more bitter with every passing cycle. On most days I can’t even look at my pregnant co-worker without the tears welling up.