While We Wait…

After continuing to mope a bit, and deciding it wasn’t much fun, Vee and I opened some wine instead. After one of our Epic Chats, it became obvious to us that we’re not really banking on our mate to say yes, but we’re not quite ready to give up on men and go down the clinic route either.

So, rather flippantly, we thought we’d look for the list of men we wrote down last year when we were originally only *contemplating* TTC, just to see what it said, and if there was anything we had missed. (Can I just add here that it was a list of random men that we knew, with no aims or objectives, just so that er, we had a list-type thing to hand to help us think!)

Anyway after discovering – with mild horror – that we had lost the aforementioned list, we decided to compile a new one. Unlike last year’s casually thrown together list, this one was much shorter, and thoughtfully we added a pro or con beside each name. The wine helped, and we feel so much better now, simply cos we are Doing Something, rather than sitting and waiting for the verdict, even though what we are doing probably isn’t very useful…. after all, the ‘con’ next to one of the names on our list states “She’s a lady.” …!

Obviously we are hoping our list of men (and woman!) won’t be needed, either because we quickly get pregnant by KD#1 before he disappears again, or because our gay friend will say he gets it, and he didn’t really want kids anyway because he hates them really and doesn’t know what he was thinking in the first place, and we can all talk about it and there will be no problem and everyone will be happy. But that all seems too impossible and perfect, so while we wait, we’re on the wine and the lists.

Rather understandably, I would say!?

- jay x